So seems like some of you want this username, because I keep getting the "your xanga user information" email over the past few months, and I see those comments on the last post.

It's interesting to keep a snapshot of what I was back in 2001... but I'm willing to talk to whoever wants it so badly. Email me at locke0623@yahoo.com.

life  These past 7 months or so have been a roller coaster ride to say the least. I long for the days of late Sept and most of Oct when I was so spiritually strong. A lot has happened since...

I must renew my walk with the Lord and must change things in my life, to start afresh with everything and have focus and vision. I want to run the race... without slowing down to really look at anything else.

status
physical: 85
emotional: 68
spiritual: 76
energy: 91

updates  Yeah yeah, my posting has gradually gotten to be less and less often... it's not so much I think that I've gotten tired of posting, but that other things have held my interest more lately. Of course there is Civ3, but there is other stuff too...

sinkhole  When will I ever be able to overcome this sinkhole of time that is Civ3? Curse you, Sid Meier, I love you! Haha...

recovery  Well, the aforementioned struggle on Nov. 26 climaxed this past Tuesday and now I'm recovering from what happened.

On that Mon and Tue were some of the most painful things I'd experienced, and I think normally I would have been depressed for quite a while. But since my confidence is in God and His provision, it has been much easier to get back onto my feet...

But at the same time my struggles with sin have picked up... I think it's kind of like when you get shaken up, it's much easier to fall back into habitual sins... so it stinks cause I had been making good progress on them before this happened, and now it's back to square one again...

status
physical: 82
emotional: 85
spiritual: 68
energy: 80

blargh...  haven't been feeling too well emotionally or spiritually lately...

status
physical: 78
emotional: 43
spiritual: 51
energy: 65

verse of the day  "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

    "And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin.  Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, `What shall we eat?' or `What shall we drink?' or `What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Matthew 6:25-34

lazy... hehe... haven't updated in quite a while! I wonder if it's that I've lost the desire to say stuff out into the open, or if it's just simple laziness, or if other things have gotten my attention more *cough*GTA3*cough*Civ3*cough*MGS2*cough*SSXTricky*cough*....

I'm quite happy that everything's been pretty good since my last posting... the ankle's healing well, and I'm really enjoying the fellowship and ministry stuff I've been doing.

status
physical: 72
emotional: 86
spiritual: 85
energy: 83